New Steez.

Biking. Road bikes. Biking at the waterfront. I might bike to school on wednesday.

I seriously believe I can do anything if I put my mind to it. It's a liberating feeling. One day that attitude might change, and it's something I fear, like when I'm old and settled down. But eventually I might wish it to change and might feel ready to be settled down.



The thing I find about love is that it's not about being soulmates or fit for each other-- it's all about whether you are willing to love that person for who they are or not. Two totally different people-- rock/pop, rap/emo, white/black, muslim/christian, can work simply because they wish it so and they put in the time for it to work. I think it's more attitude than anything. It can all be a failed relationship if you say "well this person isn't compatible because of our different interests, we're different people." I think it's what you make it that counts, same can be said for a lot of other things in life.

Some people are stopped because they realize they are different people, which I understand too. That's just simply selecting because of what you value as a person. I don't blame the smart nerd who dumps their high school drop out girlfriend-- different people, thats fine. But does it necessarily mean that it couldnt have worked out at all? No.

Love is a choice, folks. Someone can be really good to you, but you straight up won't love them. But eventually you can fall in love with maybe a totally messed up person that doesnt seem to make sense or who doesnt "fit" with you, in the eyes of other people. That happens simply because you decided to love that person, and not the nice guy/girl. It happens all the time.

Does it make you a fucked up person? NO! You choose who to love, not anyone else. And as much as it may seem messed up to others around you because of your choices, as long as it's true to you, it is not wrong. People will say that it is not right, but people will eventually understand that its on you, you live your life, not them.

With that said, I pray I won't ever fall into that predicament of choosing the wrong person. I hope I am not blinded by false temptations for some girl who i think wants to be with me, when she will choose not to love me for me.

thinking about all that i just said...i feel like what im trying to say is that I'm scared of putting myself out there, feeling really confident, and getting hurt. I'm scared shitless.


I'm not really particular with love. There is not a long list of requirements for me, I just want someone who's down for me and makes me sure of it.