I'm the hero of this story, don't need to be saved.

It's all right. No one's got it all.

If you haven't listened to Regina Spektor's "Hero", or any songs on the 500 days of summer soundtrack, you need to. Or watching 500 days of summer in general. I'm still on that movie, its so good haha. I can't wait to buy the DVD

I realized yesterday, that I don't laugh here at college like how I do with the Joes. I think the Joes miss each other, well, I know we do. The last time I really, really, couldn't breathe laugh, was the ride from BJ's.

Is there a such thing in life where you are content with how things are, but you're not happy? I think I fall into the content part most of the time. There are times where I'm like "shit, this shit is dope, I'm happy as a motherfucka." Then there's a lotta times where I'm like "Ehh."

Then there's times in life where I wish I had some sort of companionship, like a girlfriend or something. I think I've explained this before. It's like 10% of the time. The other 90% of the time I'm glad being single. But I don't think this is an accurate meter as to whether or not someone is ready for a relationship. Because, more or less, I'm kinda at this part in my love life where I'm like, "Try me."

There's been many times where I seen it in myself and in other cases where one person goes too far into trying to make things work, or "bending over backwards" per se, just for the sake of maybe finally going out with the person they're talking to. I used to think eventually it would work, but I don't think it doesn't, based on thoughts and personal experiences.

I usually just base it off the "initial vibe", and the "first five minutes". If both checks out, then yeah, there's a chance. Usually what happens though is a girl would have a cool vibe, but I talk to her, and I don't feel it. Actually, that's what always happens haha. And I'm content with continuing this process until a winner reveals themselves. But not happy with my love life, of course; you can't be happy with your love life if you're single-- that's an oxymoron.