Recently

Lately I've been unable to articulate my thoughts into a great blog entry. This one's going to be pretty shambled and scattered as well, just like the last one.

Well, high school is over! Four years of my life now a part of my past. I am a VHS Alumni now, and I am glad to say that I enjoyed my time as a student attending there. There were times where I have spoken out against Vallejo High due to frustration, but I genuinely loved the school as a whole because it helped to make me who I am today. I cannot be mad at that. Looking back, it is true that upon reminiscing something, you tend to forget all the shortcomings and remember all the good times. Through all of the bad, the good shines through and that's what I remember from my high school years.

Graduation was bittersweet. The whole week I enjoyed writing meaningful entries into my friends' yearbooks, I hope that they see my earnestness in what I wrote. As for the ceremony itself, I thoroughly enjoyed it. What made me cry was that it's really over, and the thought that here I stand, after all the hardships and stress, staying up to write an essay, projects, posters, math problems, and all the extracurricular stuff I will miss. I sat there looking at people graduate, and I imagined how they perceive their years of high school. Will they miss it, hate it, love that it's over, or no reaction at all?

The odd part to the day was how I ended up sitting next to her. I kinda just came to a conclusion that its another reason why things happen for a reason. I really didn't have any qualms about it, it was more like "oh, okay." One thing though, the awkwardness was so thick it could've been cut with a butter knife. Once it was graduation, I just told myself to seize this opportunity to take a step in the right direction. Maybe we were meant to be put in that seating. I wish her the best in all her endeavors. I wish for her happiness. I know she understands what I was to her, and if anything I hope I changed her perception of life in some positive way. I will always see her as the one who got away, as of now, barring any miracle occurring.

Sometimes I have visions of running into her sometime later in life, whether it be at a restaurant or random place, and we just get to know each other all over again. Because the connection was undeniable. That, would be nice. Oh well, I'll just live on and see.

Lately I've understood how much I love my closest friends. The Joes and the Fam make everything in life okay, and they make everything fun. I love how we can just talk about stuff. I love how we go through shit together! Just earlier tonight we went to Lake Herman! HAHA at around 10:30, after a day of chillin and Concord mall! Fun!

On a side note, Marcus is slowly getting bigger. He's still a puppy and I still carry him around like a little baby, but I can tell. I love Meilene!