Update

I don't know, but life seems very gratifying the way they are now. School started and I generally like my classes. Engineering 10 is opening my eyes to how my life could be in a couple years. I'm dealing with all of these razor blade sharp cookies in there, and I always seem to stick out like a sore thumb. I have to find a way to make whatever my attributes are to work to my advantage, which is communication skills, writing skills. The professor did say that those are truly pertinent in becoming a successful engineer, because with those skills they can eventually oversee others. But I mean, how could I even think about overseeing others do projects and such when I can hardly manage myself? I will get there. Slowly but surely, a day at a time.

Life is good when taken a day at a time. You put forth your everything into everything basically, and doing that everyday will add up and you won't notice. I try to apply that towards academics and relations. It is an ongoing interconnected process, these things. You cannot be devastated by a single event or a bad day, or minor disagreements. The most courageous thing a person can do possibly is to show perseverance in the face of failure. It's easy to become frustrated with something or someone and put it off, but it's difficult to maintain composure and stay positive in the midst of many shortcomings.

I realize hella shit about myself through reflection, and I guess blogging helps me in some crazy mental therapeutic way. I like putting my thoughts down somewhere safe or telling it to people I love. It keeps me sane; keeps my loved ones close. I told my girlfriend that I tell her some stuff I've never shared with people. Maybe she didn't really believe it, but I know I meant it. And I enjoy giving her my deepest and darkest and most honest and hope she has great appreciation for it. I enjoy showing her sides of me that I don't show just anybody, sides of me that I generally feel uncomfortable showing. Is that a crime to hold back parts of yourself from the world? Maybe. I say no. Would it be better if I showed more sides of myself more openly? Yeah I guess, but I love that I can keep it exclusive to people I really care for. That's what makes it special because its uncommon. I don't think I'd be the same person or be as grateful if I let everything out. If you didn't notice, I like being a private person heading my own agenda and catering to those dear to me.

Life's on high with my girlfriend. Everyday is better. I can't help but smile. She deserves the girlfriend of the universe award. I know, corny. But she makes corn sweet. That kinda made sense haha